The neighborhood that I've called home
for the past 3 years
has always been filled with
a cacophony of sounds.
On any day of the week
I find myself in my room deciphering
through intuition and hearing alone
all that's happening outside of it.
Most days I am able to tell
the difference between the
booming of a gunshot
and a firework.
Some days I am not.
Which means I either prematurely hide
when I could be looking out or
I risk my safety by not ducking off sooner.
And I've done the same with men.
It's taken me many years to learn
the difference between who is safe
and who is only meant to be a lesson
in fine-tuning my grounding from within.
But even through my pain I've found healing
and though I can't say I've always been glad
to learn through struggle,
I can say I'm proud of who I am.
The universe has a way of pushing us to shift
our focus and if we're ready to tune in we'll
start to see synchronicities and understand
that everything happens for a reason.
The more you trust yourself
and the guidance you're receiving
the less likely you are to compromise your
dignity for people who are misleading.
And that's when you'll be able to instantly
know the difference
between a firework
and a gunshot.
One is always beautiful
while any beauty in the other
can only be seen
after recovery from the pain.
-Liz